Goodbye

Tonight I have to do a hard thing. I just got a phone call from my mom. It appears that I must go and say a final goodbye to my Grandpa tonight. He is not doing well - and he hasn't been well for the past year. Cancer has invaded his body. My Grandpa and I are not close - he never really spent any time getting to know us grandkids or investing in the things that mattered to us. Despite his his not having a huge impact on my life, it is still hard to say goodbye - it will be weird to spend family gatherings together and not see his face.

There is a lot of turmoil on this side of the family right now - a lot of craziness that has gone on. Relationships have been destroyed and it hurts to see that going on. My grandpa being as sick as he has been lately has created even more rifts in the family.

If you think of me and my family in the next few days, we could use prayer as there is a lot of healing that needs to happen - both physically, emotionally and spiritually and this is stuff only God can transform. I know it is time for my Grandpa to go, but I hope that his going does not cause more pain within the family.